RIP Deborah Kerr

I am so saddened by the news of Ms. Kerr’s death. Anyone who knows me knows that I have had a huge fascination with classic movies since I was a kid. I can remember watching movie after movie and being amazed at the storylines. I could spend countless Friday and Saturday nights watching movies. For me, Ms. Kerr’s movies always struck a chord. Being a black kid with a penchant for vintage film did not make me the most popular girl in school. While other middle school girls were talking about the latest fruit flavored lip-gloss, I was fascinated with Old Hollywood. It was a secret I kept to myself---save for my brother and sister who often looked at me with sheer confusion and disdain—how can a sister of theirs be so utterly delighted and wrapped up in old film—films, with no black people in them. I remember watching Tea and Sympathy one night. I knew Deborah Kerr b/c I had seen the King and I a million times before. It was Tea and Sympathy that had me forever hooked. It was a story I could relate to…. a young man being teased for not fitting in. He was “different” and his classmates reminded him every chance they could. It was his teacher who reached out to him. She showed him he was special and that his “uniqueness” was normal. I too wanted someone to say that to me. I guess I imagined her to be like her characters. She always seemed to play the sweet and mostly innocent caring leading lady, and she was able to give a little more in each film. My favorites: Tea and Sympathy, From Here to Eternity, The King and I, Young Bess, An Affair to Remember, Black Narcissist, and Night of the Iguana—a delightful treat for me (Tennessee Williams and Deborah Kerr). Deborah Kerr movies were just a part of my 1980s childhood as Michael Jackson.

Whenever I discovered a new movie, I was curious to see if the actors were still living. I feel like an entire era is gone.

Non, Je Ne Regrette Rein

It's an Edith Piaff day. I haven't listened to her since one of my friends turned me on to her a few years back. Thanks to rhapsody, any and all music is but a mouse click away. Can I say, I LOVE HER!!!! Almost as much as I love Babs and Judy.

I am so feeling this song today. Translation or no translation. This sums up last night's conversation, or rather my resolve. There comes a point and time when one must take ones health into consideration. I never really understood when people say they have to get rid of people in their lives b/c they were literally making them sick. You can love someone and not want to have anything to do with them. I now know what that's like. I can love someone from a distance without needing them in my life. It's self preservation.


I am so completely and utterly DONE. I couldn't say it better myself. :) But, as the song says:

Non!Rien de rien...Non!Je ne regrette rienNi le bienQu’on m’a fait,Ni le mal,Tout ça m’est bien égal!Non!Rien de rien...Non!C’est payé,Balayé,Oublié,Je me fous du passé!Avec me souvenirsJ’ai allumé le feu,Mes chagrins, mes plaisirs,Je n’ai plus besoin d’eux!Balayé les amours,Avec leurs trémolos,Balayés pour toujoursJe repars à zéro...Non!Rien de rien...Non!Je ne regrette rienNi le bienQu’on m’a fait,Ni le mal,Tout ça m’est bien égal!Non!Rien de rien...Non!

Life's a Rollercoaster

TOO BUSY TO BLOG
TONS OF STUFF TO DO

MY LAPTOP DIED. R.IP LAPTOP

:(

WILL WRITE WHEN I HAVE TIME.

Can You Believe???

I've been listening to Robin Thicke's CD on and off for two months now and the words to this song just hit me. I got a little teary eyed today---okay, I cried. Not the quiet cry, but the for real mascara streak cry. I couldn't stop the tears. I had been on the verge for a while just thinking about my grandparents. I miss Nana and Grandpa. Every time I drive past Sarah and St. Louis Avenue, I think about them. Nana's shop was on the the corner, and I can't help but think back to the days when life was so easy. Summertime with my cousins on St. Louis Avenue were the best. Everyday was an adventure and the biggest delima was decididng what event we'd have that day.... swimming, dance contests, or one of our self-produced plays.

I miss those days. . .

RIP Zola Taylor

I just had to pay homage to Zola Taylor, one of the original members of one of my favorite groups, The Platters. She passed away yesterday at the age of 69.

Going Home

Went to my childhood church today. There's something about going back to the familiar. I always feel so at home there.... I had to catch myself because I got a little teary thinking about my grandparents. The message was definitely right one time---and for once, I could actually comprehend what the pastor was saying today. I definitely needed to hear it....

Proverbs 3 (5-6)

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him and he shall direct thy paths. . .

Considering the tumultuous week I've had... the message really resonated with me. I did not get an interview for a full time teaching position at my college. Initially I was upset, but now I'm learning to let God lead me where he wants me to go. I am not going to let it consume me.

On to brighter things. I met a very interesting person today. I haven't had that kind of conversation in a long time. Refreshing. That's the word. It was so refreshing to meet someone who can converse about a variety of subjects. Definitely a breath of fresh air....

Flaws and All. . .

I'll admit it. I'm a Beyonce fan.


I'm a train wreck in the morning
I'm a bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you
I'm a puzzle yes indeed
Ever-complex in every waaay
And all the pieces aren't even in the box
And yet, you see the picture clear as day

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I looove you
And that's why I looooooove (hmm)

I neglect you when I'm working
When I need a attention I tend to nag
I'm a host of imperfection
And you see past all that
I'm a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I'm a queen

You see potential in all my flaws
And that's exactly what I need

http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x1l4l7_flaws-and-all-beyonce

If I Ruled the World. . .

Listening to Nas today. No idea why. Felt like some rap. . . and I used to play this song all the time. I miss Lauryn. May play the Miseducation of Lauryn Hill today. Seems like that kind of day. I dropped my cell phone in water so I am--again--officially cell-phone less. Geez, that's a record even for me. Two destroyed cell phones in less than a month. R-I-D-I-C-U-L-O-U-S!!!


Hmmm, If I Ruled the World. . . .

(Gonna have to get philosophical, and I am not in a philosophical mood today).

A Change Gone Come. . .

I don't know what this feeling is. . . anxiety. About what??? Many things, but I don't want to let it consume me. I want to just relax, I want to chill, I want to be at peace. Lately, I've been so wrapped up in others that almost forgot who I was.

WHO AM I??

I am a Cancer. :)
I am a Delta, and my favorite colors are pink and green.
I still call my mother Mommy
My idea of the perfect date is a trip to the museum.
I consider hair a hobby.
I love history and art.
My favorite author is Zora Neale Hurston and my favorite book is Their Eyes Were Watching God.
I love Barbara Streisand.
Sam Cook is my muse. I create best when I'm listening to Sam Cook.
I'm a feminist and I subscribe to the school of any and all things bell hooks.
I am a writer.
I am a twin.
I am a Mirrener (I have been a card carrying member of The Helen Mirren Appreciation Society since July 2004).
As a kid I was almost hit by a bi-state bus once and by a car twice.
I hate math and science, but went to a math and science grade school.
I used to speak French.
As a kid I read Anna Karenina and Gone with the Wind during recess.
I read lips.
In 6th grade I was not popular.
In 8th grade the popular girls gave me a make over and I became popular.
I am fascinated by accents.
My dad has an accent.
My ex had an accent.
My ex before that had an accent.
I am giving up my accent fascination....

Secret Subscriber....

I've been a follower for a while now. . . When my brother and sister in law approached me with this idea last December, I was skeptical to say the least. I really didn't like the materialistic way in which the message was presented. . . Where was God in this new found secret??? Shouldn't one have faith that God can do all and anything.

I've taken a step back and actually thought about it---it truly makes sense and life has been so much better. Anyway, in an attempt to detoxify mind/body/spirit, I've evoked on the Master Cleanse. I really want to get rid of the heaviness I've been feeling these past few months. . . . Spring is here and I really want to make this a positive year. :)

I'm So Excited!!!!

Someone besides Stephen reads my blogs!!! :)

Okay, I don't know what to say...... I am never going to say never and "broke up" ever again. LOL It is what it is and I will have to go back to my White Flag analogy. Love that song.


I'm so excited!!!!!! I have an IDEA. :) Not ready to disclose right now, but it is BIG!!!!! :) I can't remember being this excited about anything in a while. Seriously.